Evry night before i shut my eyes , i hope not to meet ue in that world..
Even, For evry time i shut my eyes , be it in the day or night , I pray to let ue go off from the other world ,
to stop bothering me...
Evry time i wake up , I do not want to think abt ue..
Ue have made me feel different...
ue made me feel weak..
Ue made me think that this love is just sick...
Ue r not supposed to be here with me...
It is sick to look at ue...
It is sick to even listen ur name..
I am not sick because of hatred..
But I am sick for i let ue enter my life..
Without anyone noeing , particularly me...el guilty...
It seems to ruin that friendship that we have built before...
I miss the bond..
I miss the happiness..
I miss evrytg that we both did during our friendship days...
Ue dun belong here in my heart..
Bt ue belong to someone else..
I noe for evrytg that i m gg to do , I will nvr get ue here...
I will owaes tear for ue evryday...
Ue killed me! Ue killed my soul!
What is happening?
I feel bad,I feel guilty...
I have nvr felt this wae?
Is this what love means...
I can't hold my tears back again!
Evry single dae...
Whenever i look at ue , It owaes tear me..
I m trying to be me infront of ue but i feel that there's ntg that i can do but to tell myself that 'I HATE UE IN MY LOVE LIFE!'
but it doesn't seem to help..
It onlii helps to make me teared n makes me love ue more!
Maeb i should stop it..
N maeb i should just let myself go from this..
Im sorry but i realii miss ue loads..
I have been meeting ue evry single dae..
Evry single time in the other world..
Wish Ue Can listen to my heartbeat..
For it keeps calling for ur name..
Hope this is not love...
My heart beats Onlii for ue..
Goodbye!
Come back onlii as a fren..